Too Many Days

It has been too many days since I've heard my mother's voice, too many days since I've had a conversation with her, too many days since I've felt her arms surround me in love, too many days since I've smelled her, too many days since I've seen her crooked toes, too many days since I've heard her call me Sunshine, too many days since my girls have talked to their Laly, too many days that they've missed her, too many days that I've ached for my mother, too many days of feeling alone, too many days of my dad needing her, too many days of my brother needing her, too many days, too many days, too many days. There are times I think it is all a bad dream and that she'll call, or show up at my door, even after too many days I still feel this. I still think about her all the time, even after too many days she fills my heart and my mind. How do the days continue to click away when there have already been too many that have passed without her. I've had too many days of feeling this way, too many days of needing to cry, but holding back. I need my mom, in too many ways, it has just been too many days.