Take out the Day in my title and you get dream believer!!! For months I've been praying to dream of my mom, not a memory, but a dream. A few weeks ago, I quit asking and prayed to God saying...You know my heart and my needs, if You want me to dream of her, it will happen in Your time. I can wait Lord, but please remember me. It happened, it finally happened. I swam at 5am this morning then laid down for a little while while the house woke up. I fell asleep and had the most beautiful dream of my mom. I can close my eyes and see each and every detail. I was in a room that wasn't familiar and had an overwhelming sense of missing her, but I could feel her close....strange. I remember then being outside somewhere and there being two chairs, both large and worn in the middle of grass that was making its way through the dirt....growth for lack of a better description. I sat in a chair and looked to my left and she was there....peace filled my heart and joy bounced around in my soul. I just looked in her eyes and said "I miss you mom" (of all things I've wanted to say I surely thought I could think of something better than this), she looked in my eyes and said "Its ok, I miss you too". My dream ended there, or at least I think it did...I don't remember anything else, but I woke up feeling such peace. I feel like I talked to my mom this morning the way I did every day when she was alive. My day has continued with its hectic pace that is the norm, but I've felt such joy and peace. I also felt a need to fix things with my dad, that somehow when she told me it was ok, that she was telling me that it would work out and to put my heart out there and trust. The joy I have in my heart at this moment is overwhelming and until I dream of her again, I have the memory of our early morning chat to hold on to. So, call me a "Dream Believer" if you will, I believe in my time with my mom and am thankful that He blessed me with her today.
Mel
Jeremiah 29:11
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