Broken and Weary

My burden is easy my yoke is so light, if you need rest come to me.......I've really been leaning into Him today. It has been probably the hardest day since we lost mom. My friend Larry's mom went to the Lord this morning, expected, but unexpected...he just came home from being with her in Ohio on Thursday. My heart aches for him.....I told Eric that I'd like to take his pain away since I'm already there, I could just bear it for him and my wise and loving husband said "No, we will all have to feel this someday...". It just hurts so much and I'm just so raw that seeing him in a couple hours terrifies me.....to see the reflection of my pain in his eyes will break me again, I'm sure of it. My dad called about an hour ago, it is always so hard to hear his voice, I can hear the pain each time and I know he misses her so much. ....my heart breaks for him. He called to let me know that Uncle Charlie will probably go home to God within the next 24 hours....too much, I'm too weary today, I can't, I'm just too broken. God, I can't bear this....I give it to You, please, You said if we need rest to come to You. I need rest, because I'm tired of being broken and weary. I want to scream out in pain, the pain I feel for Larry, the pain I feel for Daddy, the pain I feel for Cindy, the pain I feel for Aunt Joan, the pain I feel for my girls, the pain I feel for Chad, for Nathan, for Joyce, for Natalie, for Libby, for my husband, for me....I just feel so much pain, it just hurts too much right now, I'm broken and weary....please Lord. I feel You in my brokenness, I hear you in my weariness, I know that you are there carrying me, please Lord, get me through this, give me the strength I need to endure this broken and weary time in my life.
Jeremiah 29:11
Melanie